Imagine being 6 years old when you experience an act of violence where you would see someone get beat up and killed out on the street and you weren't able to tell anyone because of fear.Then seeing your grandma get beat up by your grandpa and couldn't do anything because you lived under the same roof and and your only parent was miles far away from home which would continue for years until you finally let it stop,imagine being at that point in life where you would wonder where your next meal would come from and had to do things you wish you hadn't do,how about playing with your friends playing outside on the street and then being told I had to go to work .Thinking I was going to have a better future with my mom,my brother and I decided to travel more than 1000 miles just to fall under the same roof of an abusive person(stepdad)but in your head you would visualize a brighter future and after 2 years your mom decided to do the best for their kids and move out.How would your “trust” be? When someone else comes into your mom's life once again and you have all this thoughts on your head about what possible future you could have because throughout those life experiences you were thought to not trust anyone no matter how many times they would try to prove it.All that kept me alive and happy throughout those years were a soccer ball and the thought of becoming professional and no matter how hard it would get,I promised myself that I would make it,but failed to keep some promises and others at some point and started to do wrong choices.I caught myself from falling and At some point all the pain and trauma that I went through made a knot in my head and led me to other things.Hurting another person isn’t something I’m proud of but sometimes it is what it is.It seems like an act of cowardly but that's what makes me who I am,A leader that will sacrifice his happiness for the others.All these experiences have made me what I am today or who I think I am.I honestly still haven’t found myself completely and that’s why I struggle a lot to this day.To the People I opened up to, say that I have a hard life and that I never give up but I don’t see it that way, it’s just the things that I have to do to keep everyone happy, even if they’re no longer around me.